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knock knock. you're pushing yourself too much. just come and sit beside me, you can fall asleep in my arms. I'm contented here and now. we don't have to talk about tomorrow, or expectations, or what we are, if you don't want to. so please smile :)
I blogged @ | 10:37 PM
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Revelations
When I do things like hang around in an area just to send her home, intentionally empty my plans on the off chance that we get to spend time together, it stresses her up even though I tell her its okay.
Because she cares for me. She would want me to spend my time better. Its irrelevant what I say, or whether I understand her situation. That's not the point. The very fact that I'm compromising my time to wait for her is something that she doesn't want because she cares for me. She doesn't want me to just give, she wants me to gain too. And she's actually been telling me this since the beginning. She doesn't want me to give up my life totally, to drop all other commitments so that I can always be on standby for her. I don't need to be immune, always ready to function, this is not a CP operation. She wants me to live my own life, have my own goals (other than her), have my own troubles. And share snippets with one another, and support each other, both ways when the there's opportunity.
I blogged @ | 10:59 AM
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I'm thinking... Perhaps I've been too uptight, attending to every small detail that I can find, hoping not to miss a thing. Worrying when you're worrying, thinking what you're thinking. But what you need really isn't another person to add on to your already overloaded thoughts. Worry is a redundant emotion because... once I look past the initial worry, I realise that I have faith that you would be able to cope and stand by yourself. You don't need someone to be constantly on the lookout for you, just someone to share your thoughts with, and once in awhile to support. I'm sorry I got it all wrong, and its all so messed up now. But I do hope we can work things out, because you're still important to me.
I blogged @ | 11:46 PM
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As much as I know its ridiculous to miss someone you are always in virtual contact with and just haven't seen for a mere 3 days... I miss you and it doesn't make any sense at all =/
I blogged @ | 7:21 PM
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We have to cultivate contentment with what we have. We really don’t need much. When you know this, the mind settles down. Cultivate generosity. Delight in giving. Learn to live lightly. In this way, we can begin to transform what is negative into what is positive. This is how we start to grow up. -Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo Thought this was rather applicable. From 李老师's facebook!
I blogged @ | 10:37 PM
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