Wednesday, October 28, 2009
The previous post was...before PTM.
lol, people are gonna think I died during PTM or something.
For the record,I didn't, just that God suddenly decided to give me alot of presents since then and I have been too busy opening them.
So...where to start?
Prelims? AABDE :)
Thats one of the presents, but just the least of them.
Seems like there's a way to make me put effort in studies after all.
But prelims is like, ancient history...
So on to recent stuff...
hmm.
A levels are approaching in 6 days (big deal)
Oh, I'm in financial crisis right now, due to the overseas trips and excessive spending. Dunno where the money for post A's activities gonna be conjured from, but I'll manage, I guess?
hmm.
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Nothing else I can disclose at this point of time I guess,
I ought to be studying,
but of course...
I can't, not at home.
Thats why I came here to ramble in the first place, wasn't it?
Hmm well now that I've confirmed that I'm alive and kicking...time to go off! (and do nothing useful)
- 6:02 AM;
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Went my dad's place...
Kena lectured by my godfather( dude from MOE ) bout my results.
Preview of whatever's Ms Teo's gonna say on Monday.
I guess having the ability but not using it fully is more troublesome than not having any ability at all sometimes.
I'm not doing well enough... not for my abilities, not for entering university, not for scholarship. Its all very obvious, actually, but it seems being in an environment where passing all H2 subjects is considered good can make me forget something that obvious...I'm just relatively good, but not good.
What I'm trying to say is this. It seems the 2 years in CJC has made me forgot that there's lots of smarter people out there. People who were all around me, in those DLSS top classes, people from SJI, people like... Rui (haha forgive me, you're the only one I admit to be smarter than me). Back then I was just normal, average, maybe even below average. I still needed to study to stay in the competition.
Then, I screwed up O levels, came to CJC, and everything became too easy.
Minimum effort worked miracles for one and half years. Until now.
I dunno how many times I've told myself this, but its about time I studied as though I was competing at that level again.
As my godfather puts it : "it doesn't matter if CJC is only able to produce one person who can enter university, just make sure you are the one, stop comparing against those within your school".
Great response when I presented my only defence that "352 people had one or none H2 passes" , according to brother paul.
Slackening down on the 7 habits was a mistake. Its time to get my act together.
- 6:30 AM;
Monday, July 20, 2009
My results are like shit...
Pass everything but thats hardly the point, is it?
Miss Teo still gave me the highlighter (standard protocol, for A's)
but I hardly deserve it...
Terrible know she purposely one make me feel guilty LOL.
Results aside... Need to move on.
Been adding people on facebook.
Acquaintances from ages ago...
At that point of time, they were so close, so real, but now they feel...so far away, almost fictional, imaginary.
I guess... in the process of getting where I am now, I missed out on alot of things... and people.
Hard as it is to admit... I actually miss those experiences and people, and its not like really close friends or anything, you know, just random, nice people. Its a pity I didn't get to know them there and then and let them drift away, isn't it?
lol...how unlike me to actually miss anyone... I guess it happens, once in awhile.
- 6:41 AM;
Thursday, July 16, 2009
I'm damn tired...
- 4:18 AM;