And the previous post was... wow, BMT, seriously?
I realise each time I return to this obsolete practise of blogging, it marks a new phase in my life. So much has happened since the last post... where to start, where to start indeed?
She chose him... guess thats a good reason for me to move on. Its been close to a month since, funny. At that point of time I didn't think I'd survive, so silly of me. People don't actually die from heartache, do they? Often, in my head I still argue, it should have been me, I was so close, this is unfair. That's when I remind myself this is life, not a game, not another essay, where all there was to be done was to make the right moves and point out the right arguments to score. Situations... Circumstances... Errors. They all happen in life and love. I'm sad, but I'll get over it. I survived a month didn't I? I even pulled through her birthday... and I'll need to pull through mine tomorrow. Who will I spend it with? Who do I want to spend it with? I really have no idea. Probably KM and Joel , haha. F3 ftw.
Moving on... I rejoined taekwondo shortly after that horrible day. So for the past month I've been training to get my black belt. Grading this Saturday! Its really helped me get through this month alot, taekwondo. Training helps me focus and keep my mind off her... I guess that's another reason why I keep going for multiple trainings, apart from the fact that I really do want the blackbelt. But I really enjoy going to Taekwondo. Going back as an adult really feels different from learning as a child. As a child, every training was to be dreaded, every instructor was to be feared. But as an adult, I start to realise every instructor is an unique individual, with their own story behind them, that they are more than mere instructors, they are people. As an adult, I can communicate with the instructors, trainings are more than just trainings. I get to know people, make friends, bond with different people, even play with kids! It feels kinda like... one big family? Its really enjoyable.
Apart from Taekwondo I've been channeling my efforts on teaching tuition... Zheng En, mainly whose promos are coming. I hope he does well, really. I used to think all that was required was me being prodiguous at the Chem, that would allow me to teach well. But its more than that. It doesn't matter how good the teacher is, its how good he can make the student. I'm still trying to make him be as good as me at chem... hmm. Guess that's where I'll start gathering experience.
Taekwondo... Tuition... alot of outings with people who I've left out for a long time when I was immersed in her. It almost seems like I'm building up my social circle from scratch. Its like a new life... And what a better time to officially commence this new life, the day before my birthday! I wish that I can stop being sad over her and just let life take its course.
What to look forward to after taekwondo grading, I wonder?
