1st book out of NS. Don't think I'm allowed to blog bout the particulars though...
But I can say stressful, but manageable. And I realised I'm bipolar-- sometimes I feel all depressed and suddenly I'm all charged up. Strange. All in all, surviving NS is all in the mind, need to keep myself charged up.
Hmm, selfish as it may sound, eventually, my life is about me, not NS, not someone else. Its about me, and the only certainty is me. I'll need to get through these trails... and see what actually awaits me in the future.
Though I hope you'll be there when I finally make it through... I really don't know, and I'm really scared you won't be there by the time everything is over. Do you understand?
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Monday, February 01, 2010
All I feel, think, do, summarised in one song. I miss you.
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call? If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings But I know you're here with me now We'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head? If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life? If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away But I know that this **much** is true We'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with And I wish that you could be the one I die with And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with I hope I love you all my life
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today 'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right And though I can't be with you tonight You know my heart is by your side
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
