Well, , this is frustrating. I'm sitting in the clinic now, and as I wait for my turn to see the doctor I see many parents walking in with their children, looking extremely tired and troubled. I think to myself, after the O leves, ok, maybe later, sometime later, after I start working, or get married, will I be troubled, too? Just like them? Most of the adults i know lead miserable lives, in my opinion, and that includes my parents. They work, and they work seemingly endlessly everyday. Just like these parents I am currently seeing in this clnic.
When I grow up, unless I'm doing really well financially, I shall not get married, if I have children, I must give them the childhood that I never had, something like how I picture rui's childhood to be, where life would be perfect.(I dunno why Rui, she just gives me that impression)
Speaking of which, Rui's going back this Sunday. I kinda dread this weekend. The last book of Harry Potter is gonna be released, marking the end of my favourite book series, and Rui's going back. Actually I think she should go back, she would be happier there, after all, people here are fairly... dissapointing. Even I think so. Anyway, I can't say much, personally I think I've been an extremely bad host, I dunno why, but I just feel that way. And I also kinda wish she was in Australia now, and online, cos if I could talk to her I wouldn't be posting this.
She's pretty much the only person I tell stuff to. So when she's not online I talk to no-one, like these air particles on my blog. Sigh. Its not that my other friends aren't good, they're fabulous, well kinda, anyway, but I just can't talk to them bout those strange thoughts I have. So, if Rui's com were to like, blow up and she can't come online forever, I would probably live for a few years, get depression, and live a depressed life, cos I can't tell anyone anything. I seriously need to find more people to talk to...