From the moment you broke my silence with that message, I knew I was headed for a crash again.
True enough, you've got me sitting alone again, pondering the same questions I've been pondering for the past 3 months. Replaying scenes from last year. Revisiting hell.
I really do wonder what your purpose was.
Cos to hear you say "The both of us are officially together now" still hurt, even though it was something I had known and been expecting.
And to hear you ask "so when are you gonna get attached?" hurt even more.
I broke down, of course I broke down. But before that, I wanted to flare up. Or at least ignore your message. But I didn't do any of that.
Of course I didn't.
Cos in spite of all I say and do, you really still do matter too much to me.I wonder if its the same for you?
Cos you said: "I love you, but you must understand..."
but that's the problem. I don't understand.