I mentioned, didn't I.
Everyone has been putting up an extremely feeble act that they are not depressed bout their mid year results. Yet its so obvious... especially at times like PTM.

In the past, in SJI, every PTM spelt D-E-A-T-H for me, not unlike many of my classmates now. I remember how it felt, the feeling of incompetence, and parents don't usually help alleviate the problems by rubbing it in, either. Yet today the one who walked out of the meeting depressed wasn't me. In fact, I was relatively happy. I wish I can say the same for my classmates, though.

I am not the one being screwed by the teacher, now. So what is this grim feeling I am getting? I am tired of seeing you tired. I am tired of being unable to help. I am tired of constantly being in the safe zone while watching you struggle in dangerous waters. Why can't I save you? I'm supposed to be a genius, no? What is it that I lack that prevents me from pulling you across the danger line? I don't know, and I need answers, soon, before its all too late.

Then, when I'm not worrying bout other people, there's my own stuff I need to worry about. Competition. This mid year may have seen my rise in chem and maths with relative ease, but I'm certain there are people who are aiming to take me down in the promos, just as I aspire to take Andrew down. Its natural to want to surpass the best. I need to maintain my standard. Not just that, but I need to improve on my maths (hopefully to a level similar to my standard in chem) and physics, too. Looks like I cannot expect to excel in promos in shikai(read: relaxed) state...

So now its time to Bankai(<--- read: full power mode). Senkei Zenbansakura Kageyoshi.

I won't lose.