我们因为看不见而恐惧无形之物，
因看不见而敬畏无形之物，
于是手中的剑就此挥下。

Interestingly, this picture of Byakuya came together with words very similar to what I feel. We fear the unknown because we cannot see it. We are wary of the unknown because we cannot see it. In order to hide our fear we put up a brave front by drawing our swords on the unknown.

Occasionally, when I am unsure, when I can't get the answers I want even if I think deeply... the natural response is to just strike at the shadows. Do everything within my ability to force things to come under my control, instead of letting it remain in uncertainity.

It has worked in the past... using enough wits and actions usually do get me somewhere.

So now, once again, I'm facing the unknown. I am waiting for an answer. One that has eluded me for awhile, now. I cannot see the answer, I probably fear it as much as I look forward to it. If I try hard enough... if I maximise the usage of my abilities... will the answer come?

I'm still waiting.