What, more of this shit?
Arguably this is the worst holiday I've ever been through.
True, I've been doing the exact same things that I've been doing in all the other holidays, gaming and more gaming. So what sets this holidays apart from the rest?

While I've been doing the same things, its for entirely different purposes. In the past I played games for the feeling of accomplishment... Winning makes me happy, and I always win in games, more or less. So at least at that point of time, gaming made me happy.
Now the sequence is still the same : Start, Play, Win. Except it does not make me happy anymore. But I continue, anyway, I guess its a place where I have to retreat to when everything else isn't happening for me, cos in games, I get to control what happens.

I presume I'll keep returning to gaming... its like a part of my life.

Probably cos I don't like interacting with people. I only just realised that. In the past I always had a group of friends to hang out with, so it wasn't that obvious. Interestingly, in JC, once that band of friends disbanded, I found that in school I walk alone most of the time. No, this is not some desperate plea for attention or friends, I'm actually quite fine with being solitary... Not like anyone will care.

I've been searching for friends, but to no avail. I guess this 2 years will be much lonelier compared to my SJI years. Fine by me.

I heard on the radio that in an experimental set-up, a tiger defeated a lion 7 out of 10 times. The reasoning behind this is that while the lion is the king of all beasts, it hunts and lives in groups, while tigers are solitary animals. Hence, when put in 1 to 1 fights, the tiger is much stronger and will therefore win.

Taking this theory, I think I might as well be the tiger who is superior and give up companionship... so keep your distance.