Nope this post has nothing to do with mirrors whatsoever.

Just a summary of thoughts and feelings I've had in this brief break from school...
And no, I'm not emo... to say that Jw is emo just shows how little you understand me.
People get tired of life, of duties, of relationships because of how much effort it takes them to keep going. I get tired of life cos its so damn boring and its not taking much effort to keep going. So you can hardly call that emo, can you?

Arrogance? Maybe. But certainly being arrogant beats being depressed. Hands down, anyday.

I dunno, perhaps its because there's so little things going in my life, compared to other people, that causes makes me so relaxed compared to other people. True, that. The people who I consider to be able to communicate and understand me can be counted with one.... finger. So, the social aspect of my life is horribly restricted. Its not that I'm some emo shit sitting in a corner refusing to interact with other people. But simply interacting with people doesn't equate to them being your friends. Sorry classmates, ex-classmates, or other people in my life, but how many of you regard me as truely significant, anyway? So pardon me for reacting in the same way. I haven't made an impact in your lives, and you haven't made an impact in mine, and it will most probably remain that way. Amen. Its not just me, either, I don't care what others say, but its not possible for anyone to treat everyone sincerely and with trust. Its one thing to laugh and talk together... and another to be close friends. Keep that in mind.

And then, another reason why my life is so miserably empty is the rate at which I work. I won't attempt to be modest on my own blog, alright? Like, what for... no one reads it. Things others will take days... I take hours to accomplish. Things others will take hours... I finish in minutes. Perhaps its the crazily competitive nature in me that just driven me to work insanely fast since young, resulting in my current state. Or perhaps I'm just a little smarter...
Joy even went as far as saying I'm like a genius...
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...nah not that smart, lol. Thanks though.

So... after that crazily outburst of ego... on to other things.
I've been feeling strangely bored, empty, maybe even lonely. And I think, in search of answers. So it dawned on me that these feelings stems from the fact that I have no one close. As I look at my dad and mum, they all have many siblings... at any point of time there will be people there for them. For me, when I grow up, the only person who will be there for me is...myself. Not that I need help with anything I do, but still...
Then, because all my life I haven't had anyone that is close to me, I end up unconciously trying to find someone whom I can get close to. I do things... I do too much, and I fail miserably. Yea, I'm sorry for causing all these unfortunate people trouble... Just understand that when I did those things I had meant nothing bad and I couldn't stop myself even if I wanted to. Good news is... now that I've "seen my errors", I'll stop.

And Jw will disappear from here...