我已经渐渐习惯,
对感情顺其自然.

As much as I hate to admit it... I'm feeling tired, suddenly. All my escape routes from reality have been cut off -- I can't go to Hebe's event on friday cos of SPA, I can't find a new game to excel in after dota, and I'm pretty much alone now that term has started and everyone has to start school.

Not being able to go see Hebe has impacted me much more than it should, especially at a time like this, before the Mid Years. But its been close to a year since I last saw S.H.E in person... I'm losing the energy I got from the last event... and I haven't found anything new to interest me, so I guess I'm out of energy, overall.

I'm ready for the Mid Years, that much I know. But for the S.H.E hungry form to surface now? Its gonna make the next couple of months terrible...

我已经渐渐习惯
忙碌把生活填满
和自己分享晚餐
试着活得更理所当然

I guess I'll have to put the weakness aside and move on... there's too many things for me to do, I need to move on, even if there's no aim in life. Its not the first time... Who needs a purpose in life, anyway? No, life does not require anything like that... As long as I keep winning, who cares bout purpose...


你不要误会, 我只是有点累, 却没时间崩溃...

I'm not weak, I don't need help, I'm handling everyhing alright.
I can't even cry now if I tried to. I tried.
I just need some time... to stop... and rest for abit, sort out things in my mind.

I need an escape from reality. But I'm cut off from all methods of escape.

When's the next S.H.E album coming?
When will the next interesting game arrive?
When will a new true friend walk into my life?
When will something that will take up the maximum of my ability appear?
When will I be able to be myself...and stop studying?


None. None of them are in sight.

What a terrible life.

I'll end it here... no point continuing, it just gets worse.

无奈我和你写不出结局.


Pictures... to advertise for my dad's shop on a blog which no one reads.



Yes, I'm smiling. No, I don't mean it.
I don't like taking pictures cos I have to smile, for no reason, which is fake.
But anyway... the one on my right is my Dad, the one on my left is my dad's friend who happens to help me alot with chem.