Its the holidays... and suddenly everything slows down. I don't find myself moving fervently from one task onto another and just getting things out of the way as fast as possible. I have plenty of time to think... and thinking usually gets me somewhere...

Well I've completed the first half my JC1 life. Seriously, I found it more tiresome than enjoyable, and I can't say I'm looking forward to the next half of it. Its tiring to care for one person, and its even more tiring to care for 26 people and take into consideration all their thoughts and feelings before deciding on how to act in class. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels like this. Everyone's different, how are we supposed to operate together smoothly, without friction? I've been trying to avoid conflicts by paying more attention to people, but interestingly, I've been getting into more conflicts recently than when I used to just do things my way.

The perfect harmony between everyone... Its just an illusion. Eventually ripples and tears will appear as time progresses. When that happens, what should I do about it? Salvage the relationship? Or just let it rest in peace? But whats the point in saving it, considering conflicts may still arise in a few months, even a few weeks time? From this perspective it seems all the effort put into relationships are void... a total waste of time. Yet I still try to salvage it, I dunno why, either.

Its just a phase in life I have to go through...