I made a bet with a teacher...
So now I need to make sure I get at least a B for maths. Awesome.
But that was part of my plan anyway... nothing much to worry about.

I guess after three weeks of terribly empty holidays, I'm finally back to the state of mind which I had at the beginning of JC life. Less arrogant, more willing to work, similarly confident, and most important of all, virtually immune to troubles.
Its something like a reset situation... something I've found myself wishing for recently. Once school reopens it will not be a continuation of what I did in the first two terms. It will be a new start. I guess while I started on that perfect state of mind last semester, I encountered things I had never met in SJI, and I strayed from my path. Now its clear to me, what appeared to be the path for me then was just an illusion, one that managed to hypnotise me due to the lack of exposure to those kinda problems in SJI. You probably don't know what I mean... but its okay.
So now its clear to me, as clear as it was at the beginning of the year : My only purpose in JC is to study hard and make full use of my intelligence to see where it can take me, and get this 2 years over with as much academic success as possible-- something that had never been accomplished in SJI due to my arrogance and reliance on intelligence. For awhile in this 6 months I was slipping back bit by bit into how I was in SJI, lets hope it does not happen again. As such... my previous posts about how lonely I am becomes insignificant, since the only things that matter for this 2 yeras are my results. Yea... thats how it was supposed to be, and thats how it will be.

Besides, I realised there are people who care for me after all. People who had been left out of my attention scope because I was too occupied with other people and other things. Just that they are not in school. Sometimes its best to slow down and observe... instead of being too persistent on one goal which may not even be my true destiny.

This is abit of a rant, I know. But at least its a rant written in a much more stable state of mind than the previous posts. I'm thinkin about entirely different things now, compared to a month ago... the problems then now seem so trivial. But what a waste, I'm referring to the previous 6 months. I could've done so much. At least I learnt something... and that is to know when to press on and when to give up. In this case I've chosen to give up, since I see no point in pressing on. Some things aren't determined by intelligence or ability... being capable doesn't assure a happy life... Lessons I've learnt, I'll remember.

I'm thinking of alot of things now. And you probably don't understand this post because there're so many hidden meanings. Well maybe I may write a poem or two... or an essay... in chinese, where all my thoughts can be projected much more smoothly, while no one will be able to decipher them... other than perhaps Wei Feng, who doesn't read my blog, I think.

Well... thats all...